I thought I would start my year off with all my goals , plans, budget all set and lined out. New Year New Me!.... Ehhh.. not so much. I did not end my year with much intention because.... well... I was just exhausted to be honest. I worked myself to death the last two months and for once I just wanted to NOTHING!
I woke up January 1st to a dirty kitchen , party dress and makeup still on , with mixed feelings. I wanted to ex communicate all my friends that partook in my new years party, but didn't bother to help clean (lol),on top of coming to some harsh realities. I really just didn't want to DO ANYTHING! What I looked forward to the most was taking a road trip to New Orleans with my Family, because it would be the first with all of us.
We arrived in New Orleans and though the excitement for the casino was at an all time high for everyone else.... I desired a bed and a good book! I told myself that I would spend more time reading this year and I knew that I was going to start with one of my Instagram friends, Brandie Freely's book Truths. and Freedom. I remember reading a post from her blog called After Winter, a while back and I instantly resonated with her , her words, and her style of writing. Her usage of metaphors , poetically written rants, and witty yet beautiful Ig quotes made her book an easy buy. I ordered her book a week or so after its release ,but I wanted to read it at a time that my life was quiet.
Have you ever read a book in less than 24 hours? Well lets just say I did! Every page I turned, I felt a piece of truth of my own. Our stories are not the same, but the emotional truths definitely were. Her memoirs were eloquently written and her thoughts poetically stated, and I anticipated the next sentence. It seemed as if I was reading parts of my life , revisiting some of my own thoughts. To read a book that Identifies self awareness, growth, spirituality, survival, evolution, willingness, sacrifice, motherhood..... was refreshing. There were so many spoken gems that pierced.
'I LET MEN IN WHO SEEMED TO WANT ME BADLY ENOUGH TO TOUCH ME.
AND SPEND THEIR TIME ON ME. AND THEY ENDED UP STEALING VALUABLE THINGS FROM ME. LIKE TOUCH AND TIME.'
'LOVE VS. LOGIC WAS THE BATTLE OF HER LIFE AND HER GREATEST OPPONENT WAS TIME.
I have always had this sense of self awareness, but never the bravery to fully expose myself. I love the fact she faces her greatest opponent, acknowledges her pain, and shares her process of recovery. Being able to look into the mirror and face yourself is the bravest thing you can do;No longer pointing the finger at failures in love and life, but taking the responsibility in choosing to "RACE WILDLY TOWARDS THE RAGING FLAMES."'
It felt so good to know that someone else was in tune to their feelings and emotions as I am. I no longer felt alone in feeling the need to hide behind my personal journal, or moments i just sit and cry to myself. I felt like i had gained a long time best friend through the art of WORDS. This book is soul healing and saving.
I read the last page, left filled with so many emotions, but it was confirmation that i was not alone in processing my own Truths. This book was another reminder to wake up and live...everything is not meant to be planned and to rest your worries leaving them to God. I closed the book ignited, inspired, and at peace, because the journey I am on is indeed on the road to Freedom.
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